7 Weeks

Not much is new this week. I have been feeling so crappy lately. And I know it's my fault. I feel crappy and don't want to eat / afraid to throw up so I don't eat and then I just feel worse because I haven't eaten. It's so hard to work. I am having to eat every 2 hours and I have no appitite for anything. Which is hard to do at work because I can't really just bring a sandwhich (or 3) because I have no where to refridgerate them. So I have to bring snacks and they don't really help. Plus I have been needing to go shopping and I haven't yet because I just don't feel up to it. And we have no food in the house. I made rice and was so excited to eat it yesterday. I put just a bit of butter in it and sat down to eat it. Once I stuck it in my mouth I felt so sick. The butter must have been bad because it was so freakin nasty and gross. I didn't know butter could go bad. We haven't had it for very long. I have been needing to do so much and just haven't felt like doing anything. It's too hot outside during the day (and with our car being worse while the air is on and it's hot outside I haven't been driving very much) and I just haven't been in the mood to do anything. I've gotten a few migraines and those are so horrible. Before I cold take migraine meds and that would help a little bit but now I can't take anything and I just have to work through them and wait till I can go home and sleep it off. Ugh... So miserable.
My emotions have kicked in hard. Today I started to break down (in my room while Wade's friends were over) because I was watching a show on tv and they had so much food at their picnic and everything looked so good and I just wanted to be able to eat something and not feel sick. Haha. I starting crying to Wade and couldn't stop myself. He went out and bought me some fruit and a sandwhich. Which were so horrible. I felt bad. I didn't tell him how bad it was. It may just be my taste buds. But the fruit was nasty and the sandwhich tasted funky. He even bought me provolone because he wasn't sure if that was provolone on the sandwhich (which is what I wanted). I felt bad. I probablly won't be able to eat any more of it.
And one last thing. I don't remember if I said this earlier but Wendy (Wade's mom) was weird about us having a bottle. We had told her that we had already gotten something for the baby and that my mom had bought us a bottle. And she says ,"Well I hope you won't have to us it." Exactly like that. I plan on bottle feeding. I always have even when I was younger. I always knew I would. So that just pisses me off so bad. Wade I guess didn't really hear that. Today Wendy told Wade his great grandma Marine has breast cancer. That is the 3rd person on that side that has gotten it. And Wendy tells Wade "So make sure Ambria breastfeeds." ??? What does that even have to do with his great grandma having breast cancer. He tells me this and I am like Why is she trying to push me to breastfeed so bad. And I guess he didn't hear her when she said it last time. And now I am really pissed that she keeps trying to push it so hard. Wade even told her my situation and she still was trying to think a way around it. So she's trying to convince Wade to convince me to do it. I mean seriously! I hate when people try to push their opiniuns down my throat. It's fine when I ask you for advise but don't go out of your way to push it down my throat. It's my life. Just let me do what I need to do and leave if at that. I am just glad that my mom is more understanding. (that our whole family is actually) I wouldn't be able to deal with it if my family was trying to push that down on me too. And it's always people who don't know my situation that do it. And they don't care "what kind of excuses" we "try to make up". And hello!! If Wade can't find a job when this baby is born it's going to be me who's going back to work. How can I breastfeed while I am at work all crazy hours of the week? It's not like I can take a break for 15 minutes and pump. I don't even get lunch breaks! Sorry I am just ranting now.
So that's what my week has been like. I need to get my window fixed, get a saftey, and get new tags on my car before the end of the month. I hope this won't cost us too much. I don't have much money to do this.

Car Update

So everyone told me that I should change the air filter and that should fix my problem. Dad and I changed it and it didn't do a thing >: ( So I've spent $40 (which doesn't sound like much but that should have gone towards food and gas) for nothing. I took it in to a place to get a diagnoisis for it and they couldn't find anything. No one can figure this stupid car out. Our registration is due this month. $140 which sucks but it's not TOO bad. I need to get a saftey on it this year and I was going to do that a few days after we did the spark plugs but kept forgetting about it. The other day I wrote it on my hand so I wouldn't forget and everything and I was going to run home and change and then get it done. When I got home I noticed this giant huge crack in my windsheild. Out of no where. We have had small tiny rock chips in our window for almost 3 years (we have 4 of them) and I figured they haven't cracked yet they probably won't do it anytime soon. Of course it has to happen when my car is breaking down and we don't have extra money and when the money we do have has to go to bills and stuff. Sucks. This always happens to us. Sorry I am just stressing over money and this huge doctor bill. This just sucks pretty bad.

6 Weeks

My morning sickness has been getting a little worse over the past week. Today was pretty miserable. We woke up and went to the in laws house. Their house was so hot I got sick right away. I went into Holly's room which was so hot I was sweating just laying there with no blankets on and yet it was the coldest room in the house. I threw up a few times and came out to eat something. All I could really keep down was rice so I was kind of scarfing it down. I ate a tiny bit of meat and weird salad with weird looking cucumbers. Then I felt better. Then I sat in the living room and got sick all over again. I had to just lay down. I felt better once I got home with just little waves so sickness but I was okay. Now while I am at work I am sick all over again. I don't know why it's worse at night. So pretty much I've felt sick all day. Sucks. I was helping a customer and I had a bad wave come over me and I had to just sit down and try not to focus on being sick. Right after I handed them the map, I bolted to the bathroom but nothing happened. I feel like I need to but can't. I don't know what's worse. Throwing up every 10 minutes or feeling sick all the time and not being able to throw up.
I am normally a side sleeper. It is normally my left side too (they say it is best for your baby to sleep on your left side so I thought "That's perfect. I won't have to worry about anything.") but lately I've only been comfortable on my back which is the worst postion to sleep in. I was scared I was hurting the baby so I looked it up and it's normally okay in the first trimester while you are so small so I am happy about that. It's weird. I've never been a back sleeper. I hardely ever do it now I do it every time I lay down. For some reason I've been having a hard time sleeping. I can not get comfortable and my whole body is sore. It is uncomfortable everytime I roll over (which is very often). It's weird all these random changes your body goes through. Like how something the size of a pea can cause me so much discomfort. Oh well right. Hopefully it will get better soon.

Car Problems : (

Wade went down to Vegas over the weekend to drop a friend off at the airport. He took my car (the Suzuki). Once he came home the car started acting very weird. When we are stopped (red light or stop sign or whatever) the car starts shaking like it's going to run out of gas or the battery is going to die. It freaks me out every time I have to stop. I try to take the back roads because it's less traffic and less braking. So me Britt and Dad changed my spark plugs to see if that would help. After we were done the car seemed to be working so much better. Not 100% but much improved. It wasn't that hot that night so I wasn't really running the ac. The next day after work (at 3pm) I had to turn on my ac because (obviously) it was hot. And it stated doing it again. So it's worse when it's hot out side and the ac is running. I took it to a diagnosis place yesterday and they had the car for almost 2 hours and couldn't find anything wrong with it. Humphh... So I am going to take it back some day when I can just leave it there all day so they can really find what's wrong with it. And hopefully they can. Plus Wades ac in his car doesn't really work. It's not really blowing out cold air - only hot air. I am going to buy an air filter also and some stuff to clean out the fuel tank and hopefully that will help too. It needs it. I am just hoping this isn't going to be too much money. I love working on my car with Dad. It's so fun. I just wish it weren't in dire need of help and it was more just for fun. It's great though. Now all we need is to get mom out there with us and we would have the whole family helping fix my car : )

On other news we are so excited to see Harry Potter : ) I was planning on buying tickets early for it and going to the midnight nlshiwing last night but totally spaced. They are probablly sold out for a week. I also wanted to reread the book before I see the movie (which is what I normally do) but I am only on like page 200. Still need another 400 to go. So maybe once I am done reading it the crowds will have died down and it won't be too busy.

Almost 6 weeks-Random

I've been trying to decide what to do wheather I get a midwife or a doctor. We decided to get a doctor. Wade is scared to have a midwife. So we are going to get an expensive doctor. : ( I called the hospital yesterday and asked them how much it costs to stay there one night and they were all dumb and had to ask someone else and then transfer me to someone else and I never actually found out how much it is. I am just trying to get everything straight. For once I am not really procrastinating (sp?). I cant wait for Kali to get home. It's been so weird to go over there and not have her there. I am already becoming an angry grumpy pregnant lady. Haha Everyone and everything has been bugging me. I am already sick of people trying to give me advise and trying to tell me what to do and how to do it. Ugh. It's making me angry just thinking about it and unfortuatly I still have like 7-8 more months left. Well acctually longer because it wi get worse when the baby is born : | Oh well. What can you do right? Just smile and pretend like you are listening.
Wade has been so super great : ) He makes this so much easier for me. He has been rubbing my back and my feet and helping out so much. He makes me laugh when I feel sick and it's making it so great. He is so excited for this baby to be born ; ) He said he can't even wait 9 months for her. Plus he wanted Kubrick for a boy and I kindof changed it on him. I brought up a name I really liked and he didn't really like it at first and I said it's okay. We picked Kubrick first and I acctually picked the girl name out so you can choose the boy name. He said that the mothers intuition is better than the dads and if I feel this baby should be named a certian name then that's what it's going to be. So I am going to get my way : ) and we keep Kubrick for the middle name. You will all find out when we find out what the sex is. Sorry if that's too far away : ) Only 3 and 1/2 more months to go : )
My morning sickness hasn't been too bad. It's worse at night for some reason. I just feel super sick at times and have to hold in my puke - sorry if tmi. I have to force myself to eat during the day which has been hard for me. I have no appitite and if I don't eat I feel sick so that's the only thing that sucks. I'm not use to eating so much.
I had a dream that the registraion on our car was suppsed to be done my the 12th and it is now the 15th so I was freaking out in my dream. Haha. Weird.

5 Weeks Take 2

My morning sickness started today : ( I am at work right now and I am puking my guts out. Sucks. I wish I was at home in my own bed. Ugh... I feel so crappy. Hopefully this will go away quickly.

5 Weeks

I am going to start tracking my pregnancy so you dont have to read if you dont want to. The times it's about the pregnancy or the baby it will say what week I am on. Well this week started off great! I felt great and didn't feel sick or anything. I wasn't approved for any finacial help which sucks so bad!! Oh well I am going to find a doctor tomorrow if I feel up to it. My back has been killing me so bad. I think it's just a pinched nerve (I hope!) and that everything okay. I am kind of freaking out about it because it was so bad tonight. I really hope everything okay with my little baby and that it's just something that happens. Ugh! Other than that nothing else has been going on. I have not been sick (except that one time) and I haven't really felt too naesous. I just hope everything goes smoothly with this and everything will work out for the best. : ) Enough for tonight. I'll post more later

4 weeks

As all of you know I am pregnant. Yay : ) We found out today. I was 3 days late and just figured I'd take it just for fun. I didn't think I was. I kept feeling some minor cramps since I was supossed to start. I jet figured my body knows it's supossed to start and that's why I'm having cramps. I figured I was just under so much stress with this whole impounded car thing that that was the reason why I was late. Almost right away the test showed up positive. The line starting showing up on the left side and I was looking at the picture on the test and the line was supossed to be on the right side (the control line). Then the second line showed up right after. Too bad ALL of my family is out of town and we had to celebrate by ourselves. That's okay.
We went to mom and dads house to cook a steak for Wade. I was going to have chicken but grilled cheese sounded so much better. I barely could eat one sandwhich and I was getting full. Weird. Then all of a sudden I had an urge to puke. Right after I was done I felt totally fine like nothing ever happened : ) The joys of being pregnant. I am 4 weeks 1 day pregnant today and I'm already getting morning sickness? That sucks. It's going to be bad. Oh well.
I only have 4 more months till I can find out if it's a boy or girl.

I'm making a bet. Add a comment to this and write down what you think it is. The person who is accurate gets a prize. Also - write if you think he/she is going to have dark hair or light hair and whatever else and it will add to the bet. Good luck : )

Bank problems >: (

Wow. It's been so long. I've tried to hold off because I just don't want to post about our whole issues with our banks but I figure I better get it done. In short-this is what's been going on for the past month or so... We had a hold put on our account because 4 checks tried to go through our account and we did not write them. The lady did not tell me they were going to put a hold on the account so we haven't been able to get our money out. Lame. So we have talked to everyone and I finally talked with a nice girl who told me all I had to do was open a new account with Chase and the money from our old account (Wamu) could be transfered to the new account. So the next day I go in to the bank to do so and after we got all set up they said "Oh no. We can't do that." We were there for about an hour-holding up the lines and we still weren't able to get our money. So we opened a new account with Chase for nothing (which I am so mad about.) I did not want to open an account with them because once Wamu switched to Chase is when ALL of our problems starting happening. Plus it is not FDIC insured. It is not a free checking. So we have to use it 5 times a month otherwise we will be charged for it. Blah blah blah blah. There is so much more. So the lady told us to call this number in 24-48 hours and they will have made up their minds to see if they can give us our money. I called a few days later and the guy I talked to didn't know anything and said there was a letter that was supossed to be sent out to us. I told him we haven't gotten anything and we need this done NOW!! He said all he can do is send another letter. (This happened about a week ago-still haven't gotten anything). So now we just have to do the waiting game and HOPE they will speed up the process of closing our account. Which right now ( I just figured out) is only a few days away from the date it was suppssed to close anyway. A lot of good that did huh?! So we just have to wait and hope they send us a check for our money. When I opened that new account the lady said we HAD to put in at least $25 to acctually open the account and I told her the olny reason I did this was so I could have my money. I don't have any and I am not putting any money into it. Just cancel what ever you did so it can't open. A few days ago I got our new debit card in the mail. Haha. So I called right away to cancel the account and they are going to try to charge us $25. I told him I am not paying that and I'll just wait 3 months so I can close it. (if you try closing before 3 months they charge you-nice of them to tell me). Then I remembered that if I don't use it I will be charged anyway. So I'm stuck in a rut. I am going to fight it and maybe to back in to the branch because they knew our story. What a mess huh? We are still waiting for the money and I have a feeling like it's going to take another month to get it. Let's hope not right?!

Anyway!!! Other than that there is nothing new with us. Same old crap.

- & + VERY LONG POST

I am so upset angry and pissed off. I am so happy excited and thankful.
UPSET=Period showed up today AFTER I bought expensive pregnancy tests (after being 3 days late), tested, and saw it started right after. Couldn't have come 10 minutes earlier?! I really thought I was pregnant. I was almost 100% positive I was. I try to make myself think I am not so I don't get so upset by it. I could explain almost all my sympotoms except a few. The ones I couldn't expain, I had never had before and that's what made me so certain I was. It's just devastaing. Trying for months and never succeding. I know it's just going to get worse too : (
ANGRY=My stupid bank. I went to go put money into my account (stuff is going to go through tomorrow) and the guy said it would take 4 days for it to to through. What the freakity freakin crap?! Since I opened my Wamu account online in Cali (Wamu switched to Chase in Utah last week and Cali doesn't switch to Chase until October.), they have to mail my checks or cash to Cali to send them to "Wamu". So now I am going to overdraft because of these stupid freakin people who didn't stop and think - people open their account in one state and then MOVE!! This is happening to a lot of VERY angry people right now. They should have switch nation wide at once so this wouldn't have happened. Or atleast sent us letters explaining it. That way we can know that this was going to happen so we could have prepared ourselves for it so won't get charged fees for it. That's probablly why they did it. Just to get lots of money. So if I "deposited" the money into our account, I wouldn't get the money until Tuesday. Still have overdraft fees that they "might pay" ( but most likely won't because they are ... Retards. Or wait till Tuesday and have Wade's check go through and have fees but be able to use our money for Dad and Wade's birthday. I am going to close our account on Tuesday. I am not going to put up with this crap. Chase has been giving us so many problems all ready and they just barely switched.
PISSED OFF=Stupid people. People (in general) just drive me nuts. People who stare for no reason. People who don't know how to drive or read the road signs that say 45 miles an hour. Aparently all roads in St. George are 25. People treat you like crap even though you had nothing to do with whatever they are pissed about (and you can't change it no matter how much you try to make it better) People who are fake. People who look down on others. So pretty much everyone.

HAPPY=Family. I am happy to have such a great family (and in law family). I am happy that Wade's gpop was nice enough to buy us a new battery for Wade's car. We have been needing it for about a month now and haven't been able to afford one. He spent some extra money on a warrenty (which I love) and a good brand. I am happy Wade's mom got us Wii Fit : ) I have been wanting that for over a year. I waned it even before it came out. It was always too much money to spend on myself. (about $100) I am happy that Wade thought about me when he and his mom went to go pick it out. I am happy that eveyone has been so happy and supportive with me wanting to get pregnant. I am happy that other people are excited for me to get pregnant. I am kind of happy that Wade got upset (and looked like he was going to cry) when he found out I wasn't pregnant (again). (Not happy but ... I don't know what to call it. Touched?)
EXCITED=Playing the Wii when I get home tomorrow. I can't wait to start playing our new game. I am excited to see Dad tomorrow. I am excited to have a BBQ and eat homemade ice cream. I am excited to go home and sleep =•) (when am I not excited about that?) I am excited to spend time with my family.
THANKFUL=Family. I am thankful that Wade's family thought of us and were so generous for out birthdays. I am thankful (tf) for Kali. She always let's me talk to her and I can open up to her more than I can with almost anyone else. You give me a lot of encouragement and strength I never knew I had. I am tf for Mom. I can tell her all my worries and open up to her I know she will still love me anyway. She listens to me and is always there when I need her (except when she's watching her shows : ) Don't even try to talk with her while she is watching her shows). I am tf for Dad and his handy toolman scenses. I am glad that I can go to him with all my car problems and I know I am in good hands. I don't trust anyone else with my car problems. I can always talk with you about anything (except for all that girly stuff) and you give me great advise. I am happy that you think about me at 12 or 11 at night and call me just to talk. I am tf for Joesph. You always care about me and let me talk your ear off. You let me bug you all the time. Thanks for always massaging my back and being understanding. You are the best little brother I could ever have. I am tf for Natali. Thanks for always talking with me. Thanks for all the advise you have given me over the years. You were always there for me. I could talk to you about everything and I can be honest with you. I am tf for Micah. Thank you for being a great brother. I'm glad we have so much in common and we can talk about anything. I am glad I can be myself around you. You always make me laugh and can make my day so much better. I am tf for David. Thanks for always thinking about me and always calling me. I wish you could live closer so we could hang out more and so I could get more massages from you (although now my back is worse than moms and even the slightest massage hurts like crazy). Thank you for always giving us gifts and cards (for X-Mas and birthdays). I know you guys are struggiling too and it always means a lot to me that even though you don't have our name for X-Mas you still give us something. I am SO tf to have Wade. I love you so much and I don't know where I would be without you. You always make me happy and I am so lucky to have you.
I am lucky to have such a great family and I don't know what I would do without any of you. I am so happy that we are close. I love everyone of you and I can't wait to see all of you. Sorry this is so long ; )

Lake Trip!

Wendy, Me, and Holly at the lake.

I feel like something is biting me.
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The top of my foot felt kind of numb yesterday. Hard to explain. Then when I laid down to go to bed it started itching like crazy. I couldn't stop it. Today my inner ankle is itching like crazy no matter how much I scratch it. I am itching all over!!! I wish today was Sunday so I could just sleep today.
Wade might have gotten food poisoning. He thinks he does at least. I don't think he does. He hasn't puked at all. I just can't wait to get into bed!!! I wish the days were longer when we sleep and faster when we work. That would be sweet!! I don't know why I hated working so much at first. It's boring and we don't get brakes, but it's a lot less physical than the carwash. Which for me, isn't a good thing. The carwash actually helped me stay in shape (well not in shape but not get any fatter). I've really had to start watching what I eat. All though I don't eat as much working here as I did at the carwash. I really only eat one or two meals a day depending on what shift I work. At the carwash I was always around food so I would run in and grab something to eat and run back out and just pay for everything at the end of my shift. I've cut back on my spending a whole bunch too. I would always get about 3-5 44oz cups of diet pepsi a day along with candy, chips, or (my personal favorite) taquitos. Yum!! The breakfast taquitos are so good!!!!! That sounds so good right now. I forgot what I was talking about.
I have no idea what to do for Wade's bday. He says he doesn't want anything and doesn't want to do anything. That's no fun! I feel bad. He says that he doesn't care about his bday anymore.
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I need to get a pencil sharpener for my eye liner. The wood was poking me in the eye today. It kind of hurt. I also need to start shopping for bday and fathers day gifts. Ahhhaahh!! It's everything all at once! June and December! June is fathers day for 2, 3 birthdays. December is X-Mas for who knows how many, 4 birthdays. So stressful especially when you have no money : )
Only 8 more minutes before I get to go home. Yay!! I'm so glad mom is back! I am so happy that everyone is back. I was so lonely!!!! Have a good day!

Memorial Weekend (kindof) Pixs coming soon I promise!!

Things have been going. Not that great but not horrible either. I am never watching Britt's dog again. It took me over 4 hours to st him back in his stupid cage. He was driving me nuts yesterday. On monday, me, Holly, and Wendy went to the river and walked down that for about an hour. We got some really cute pictures of all of us. There were these little things on the ground that were black and weird. I noticed they were moving and I told Holly that they were bug and she jumped so high and screamed so loud. Hahaha. It was so funny. I was laughing so much and trying to walk upstream at the same time and I could barely breath. It was great. After 3 1/2 years of knowing them, I am finally feeling more comfortable with them and they are more comfortable with me too. I found out some crazy stuff over the week end. I am not sure what to do with all this information either. I want to tell Wade so bad but I can't.
James cooked for us. He made us burgers (regular and buffalo). They were good. Nice and smokey. We brought over the wii and played on that.
I don't know what to do for all these bdays and fathers days coming up. Only 11 days until dads birthday. I have no idea what to get him!! (as usual) then the next day is wade's bday. Have no idea what to get him. The a week later is mine. Don't have any idea what to do. Then less than a week is fathers day. Have no idea what to get him again. Dad is the hardest person to buy for so please!!! Give me some of your ideas. Please!!! I have to go baby sitting tonight. Hopefully it's only for an hour or 2 at the most. I feel nasty. I need to go brush my teeth. I wish I had my toothpaste.

Update and Movie Review

I think I have a bladder infection. Maybe that's why this sickness has lasted so long. I'm not sure what it is but I think I have a little blood in my urine and I really need to see a doctor. I shouldn't have put if off for so long. When I was at DRA they tested my urine for something and found out I had a bladder infection. I had no idea. I don't usually get any burning sensation when I pee when I get them so I never know I have them. They gave me antibiotics and it didn't clear up so I had to take a stronger dose until it cleared up. But it kept coming back. When I moved to Cali, I had one and had to get some meds for it. Before we got married though, I had a bad one. I had a fever and was so sick from it. So now I am thinking that I had one and didn't know about it. Now it's to the point of peeing with a little blood. Sorry that's so nasty. I bought a jug of cranberry juice and plan on drinking that tonight. And buying a few more and drinking one a day until I can go in to the clinic. The rest of me feels better. So I am happy about that.
I went to see the new Terminator Salvation and it was freakin awesome. Christian Bale did such a great job. He is a really good actor. He gets so into his roles! You need to see this. Just make sure you at least watch the first 2 Terminators first. The third one is okay so I would watch those too. It will help understand the movie a lot. I can't wait to see the new Wolverine movie too. That will be the next movie we go to. I've heard mixed reviews about that though. I know I'll like it anyway. Not a lot of people liked the third X-Men movie but I still liked it and own it. I've just heard that the story line is choppy and they try to fit in too much in a short amount of time. But I still can't wait to see it.

I am finally feeling better! Yay! My stomatch still feels a little uneasy at times but it's not naeseous (sp) anymore. It's kind of a weird feeling. I can't really describe it. Something weird is going on in my body. But at least I feel better. I need to go to a doctor. Haha. Hopefully soon right? I feel so much better. I am happy right now. We are okay with money this week and I finally cried today so I feel better emotionally. Hopefully this lasts and won't change by tomorrow. I am jealous and sad that I can't come to Oakland with everyone. That would have been so nice. And fun! I am going to be lonely without anyone here in town with me. Let's hang out before you leave!! (If you read this before you go) I'll write more later. There's not much to write about.