12 Weeks 2 Days - Possible Movement?

Last night I was at work and I felt this little pop or something way down low. It was definately not gas. Gas has always been in my stomatch not down low. It was below the top of pants which are pretty low under my belly button. I am hoping it was the baby. I can't really descibe how it felt. Weird little pops or itty bitty pokes. It went away after 30 seconds. I am reading on baby center about how most of them has felt it around 13-15 weeks (some earlier). I know the baby is super small and it just barely popped out from under my pubic bone but I really think it was the baby. If never felt anything like it and never any kind of movement that low before. I am thinking and sticking to it that it was our little guy. He's all ready strong (showing us his heart beat so early) and now this. I am looking forward to seeing the doctor next week and asking her where the baby is so I can see if I am right or not. I just want to cry thinking I've felt him so early.

12 Weeks

I am finally coming to the end of the horrible 1st trimester. My M/S has eased up and I have only had it about twice this past week. So I am hoping it will be done and over within the next two weeks or sooner. We finally came up with both names and we love them. I am glad we finally came up with a boy name. I really thought we wouldn't have a boy name and with our luck that's what we'd have. I bought the first baby item this week. I couldn't pass it up. It's a brown shirt with a green peace sign with little blue smiley faces inside the sign. It's a little boyish but I think if I got a blue bow to put in her hair it would work for a girl too. (Just incase it is a girl) It was on sale and they only had 2 left and I really wanted it. I can't wait until I can feel her kicking. I have had twinges and I have to tell myself it's not the baby it's something else because I know there's no way it's her yet. I just can't wait until I can know for sure.
I have been very emotional this week. That's definately not easing up on me. I have been super depressed about nothing and then I'm fine. I have been one huge ... Jerk. I just noticed that my stupid boss just hired a freakin guy to work the night shifts on the weekend!!! Oh I am so pissed off!!! I am so glad to be done with this place and with Darwin. He makes me so angry. Oh well. I'm glad Wade wouldn't have to work here and put up with all this crap. Whatever.

Some things I know I want for sure- a pack and play, a diaper bag, a carrier (you can wear your baby in front of you), and a car seat (duh obviously) that can hold up to 100 pounds. They are more expensive but it's worth it because you don't have to buy a new one when they get older. These things I am going to buy before the babys born. I know I am going to have a crib. I've had a few people offer me theirs. And I know I will get clothes. So these things I am for sure going to save up money and buy. I will add links in soon so you can see which ones I've picked out. I saw some cute diaper bags at Target that were awesome. They came with so much stuff. The pack and play has a little sleeper for newborns. It cuddles them in so they sleep better. Plus it has a changing table on it. It's pretty cool. I've seen car seats that go up to 100 pounds but I haven't really looked in depth at them. I wanted a stroller that came with a car seat but I figured it's more worth it this way. I don't need to stroller if I have a carrier. I can just strap her in and walk all over the place. Plus I know it helps put them to sleep. Britin always wore one with Emery. Everytime I would see her she was sleeping. When I baby sat when Emery was younger she fell alseep almost insatntly when I was walking around. So those are just a few things I for sure want to get.
I am glad to be done with this place. I am glad I am going to have a normal schedule from now on and I can acctually sleep with Wade : ) All though I'll probablly go to bed way earlier than he does. At least I can be home at night and have a normal sleeping schedule. Yes!!! So I am hoping that everything goes good for this next week. I hope my new job goes okay and is not too stressful or hard to get. I hope my M\S gets better and I won't have to run to the bathroom on my first day of work. We'll see.

New Job

I put in my 2 weeks notice today. Aaron got me a new job that pays (starting out) $12 an hour and after 90 days you get benifits and you can get about $14-15 an hour depending on if you are doing good. What I am going to be doing is setting up merchant accounts. People join the company and we set up their accounts and charge their card and stuff. I am not 100% sure what I am going to be doing but it sounds okay. I wish Wade could have been the one to get this new job and not me. I don't want to have to start all over. I hate starting new jobs. I finally feel comfortable here and now I'm moving. Ugh. Plus it would have been nice to have Wade working over there anyway. We could have full benifits and I could maybe take off some time after the babys born but if he doesn't find a good paying job before this kid is born then I am going to have to rush my recovery and head straight back to work which I don't want to do. That is going to be very hard on me. I'm sure this job will be better though. I am sure I will get lunches and maybe even a break during the day : ) Plus it's only 4 blocks from my house so it's not too far. The guy I talked to seemed nice and seemed like they treat their emplyees nice which is way more than I can say about the hotel. I asked Darwin (my boss as of right now) if I ever got a different job if Wade could work here and he pretty much said no. He doesn't like having guys working here. Even though he has a gay guy working here currently he doesn't like to have guys working here? He said he'd talk to Cindy (his wife) and let me know. I doubt it though. Which is lame and sucks. So I am hoping to be done with this job by the end of this month so I can just start on next month. I guess we'll see how it goes.

11 Weeks

This past week has been better. My morning sickness has gotten better. But I've been getting headaches for the past week. Today some stupid loud kids were driving me nuts as they were playing on the computer and my small headache turned into a migraine just an hour after being here. It came on quick and I've been in the bathroom almost all night. I've been having to run in there every 10 or so minutes. It is so exausting. My whole body is worn out and I can barely keep my eyes open. I am so miserable right now. It's 3:33 am and I only have 3&1/2 more to go. I hope I can make it that long. My whole body is so tired. I just want to go to bed. There is nothing left in me but my body keeps thinking there is and I'm still having to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes to dry heave. Ugh. So miserable. Other than this it's been an okay week. Britin offered to give me her crib when Emerys done with it. So that's cool. Nothing much has been new this week. Just the same old stuff.

A Quick Update

Soon I am going to maybe do the belly week by week to see how much it grows. What do you think about that? It might not happen though. I never have my camera and I am not sure I even have a plug to plug it in the computer but I was just wondering your thoughts on it.
It's a very slow night. None of my normal people updated their sites : ( and even Y!A is slow. There is only about 1 question every 5 minutes. I only brought one movie and I only have like a half hour left on it and I was hoping to save it for around 3am but I don't know if I can last that long. I am just going a big crazy right now.

Pigs In A Blanket

So it's been kind of a crazy exciting night here at the hotel. I checked someone in to room 120 late at night. (1am) An hour goes by and the guy says that some drunk guy knocked on their door and was talking about some city and blah blah blah. He said it was a taller guy with blonde hair. A few minutes later the guy (blonde hair guy) comes and sits down on the couch. He's waiting for a friend. So I figure a friend is going to pick him up and he'll leave. Well he leaves but I don't know where. The guy calls back and said that 118 (the room right next to them) is bing loud and is waking up their kids. I of course feel bad and I call 118 and tell them to be quiet. They say okay and it's left at that. A while later 120 calls back and is saying 118 is now banging on the walls. Ugh. So I go down to see if they are being loud and yes. They were. I could clearly hear a few people talking in the room as I was out in the hall. So I go back to the front desk and I have to make the hard decision. Wait it out or move them to a different room at 3 in the morning. I hate confrontation and I waited about 20 minutes before actually calling them. I told them a few rooms had complained about them being loud and he was nice about it. He said it was bs because he wasn't being loud but he'll move anyway. Haha. Okay you weren't being loud. That drunk blonde guy went into their room and I figures they were drinking. So he comes up to the front desk to get his keys and as he is up at the desk 120 calls and says that they have been banging on the walls still and that he is getting pissed off. I tell him that I moved the other people upstairs and they shouldn't bug him anymore. The 118 guy comes back down to the front desk and says it's bs they weren't loud. I just say I'm sorry but I had a few complaints from different rooms (I know I am a liar too : ) And that I had no other choice but to move him. He just kept going on about how they weren't partying in there and they were only watching a movie and they did have "a cocktail but we weren't having a keg or anything". Haha. So I just say okay I'm sorry. I know he was lying to me. I heard them and yes they were being loud. I would take the word of a father over the word of a drunk. And yes. I could smell the "one cocktail" on his breath. And the counter is about 2-3 feet away from where I am standing.
Anyways. So time goes by 120 calls back and I let him know that they are up on the third floor and they won't bother him anymore. I told them if they come down and bang on his door again I will call the cops and have them kicked out. So time goes by and I see a cop car drive up. Instinctivally (yeah I can't spell) my stomatch drops like I did something wrong even though I know why he was called. So he comes in and talks to me for a hit and this guy (that I knew was in 118) comes in and I wisper that this guy was in 118. The cops talks to him and he said the blonde guy was super drunk and that he just went to go take him home. He was the one banging on the walls and was being loud. He said that he was coming back for the other 2 girls to take them home too. (P. S. I forgot to mention that the 118 guy said there was only him and his two friends and his dog in the room) So I was right. The 118 guy did lie to me. He had maybe 5 people in the room plus a dog. And yes they were being loud and banging on the walls. And yes. They were drinking. Ha! So the cop checked out around 120 and it was silent (even though 120 said they were still being loud after I moved them). So that was my fun for the night.

My sickness was better today and I was able to eat the salad from yesterday. Although the rice was so so salty. It's weird because it wasn't yesterday but I couldn't eat the rice and beans part. I had to just pick at the lettuce and pick of the rice. Haha that's how salty it was : ) Wade brought home some stuff that John got is from the fair. One of them was a little pin that had babys feet on it. And Wade got all excited and said this is how big the babys feet really are at 10 weeks. Oh!!! So cute!! John just got it for us not knowing I was actually 10 weeks along. They are so tiny : ) I could barely fit the pin in between my fingers. They are so cute. So we are going to buy a baby book and put the feet pin in there. Wade was all excited about it tonight. It was fun. I have met 2 people on Yahoo Answers who are due about the same time as me. It's fun talking to pregnant people about what's going on. They were having the same stuff I was going through and it's fun to just have someone to talk to. I wish they were real friends : ) so I could actually know them in person and we could be pregnant friends together. And before you fewak out mom-they do not know my name or have any access to any info. They can push a button on my profile that they can email me but they don't know my email address and they won't. So don't worry. I'm not stupid enough to give them any of that or meet in person or whatever. So don't freak : ) Well I should probablly watch this movie so we can get it back to John. I wish it was Sunday morning so oh wait.... I can't sleep this Sunday so it doesnt matter. Never mind : )

10 Weeks = Miserable

Wow. Last week I was feeling so great. My morning sickness was getting a bit easier and it wasn't really happening very much. Since I hit 9 weeks I have just been miserable. Morning sickness every day and the past few days have sucked. I need to do so much (wash clothes and clean) but I haven't because I feel so crappy. I had to force myself out today so I could pay the insurance and get my registartion done finally. I have been getting headaches for the past few days and major mood swings. And right now I have horrible sickness and hiccups and they don't mix well with each other. Yuck. I am just glad that the night is almost done with and I can get home and sleep. I bought a salad from Durangos and I've been kind of craving it for a while now so I decided to get it tonight. And not even 5 minutes later I was in the bathroom throwing it up. Makes me mad. I spent money on something I can't eat. I better have Wade eat it for me. My skin has become more itchy and dry also. It's nasty.
We traded Wendy for her bed because she was getting a new one and it was bigger than ours and we thought it was more comfy. Turns out it's like 10 years old and is almost as stiff as a board. When we were pulling out our mattress it was almost twice the size of hers width wise. Ours had so much padding and cousioning and hers is just springs. I am not sure how I feel about it yet. I am still trying to decide. It is bigger than ours. I am now able to roll over to the middle of the bed and not push Wade off. (which I've noticed I've done for the past few nights). Also I have been having to get up in the middle of the night to pee. Makes me angry too. I thought since I was 10 weeks and that hasn't happened yet that it wouldn't or it would come way later. Nope. I hate waking up in the night for anything. It takes me forever to go back to bed. The other night I think it took me almost an hour to go back to bed. So that's what's been new this week. I am hoping this 10 weeks will be good to me like week 8 was. I just want to be able to feel okay again. I think my sickness is worse when I do the night shifts too. I have been such a grouch too. I get angry at almost every customer that calls or comes up to the front desk. I know I'm not being nice to them and I don't really care. If they want to complain to someone they can. I'm not rude but I'm not nice either. I don't smile or chit chat with them like I use to. I just can't pull that crap off anymore. Most of the time I want to strangle everyone so I guess it's good that I am at least talking to them. I still give most people a choice of what floor they want. So that's a good thing right? Haha. Oops. So sorry if I've been short or pissy with you. Wow. This post is all over the place. I don't really remember where I was going with any of this.
Uummm.... So I guess that's it for now. I am hoping the second trimester eases off me. I am hoping my sickness will get better by then or at hopefully be gone by then. That would be so nice. Only 2 more weeks before we'll see. Have a good night. I might update more later. We'll see.

9 Weeks + First Doctors Visit

This week my sence of smell has kicked in full force. I can smell everything. I can smell the stinky breath of someone at the table next to me and the meat Wade cooked from two days ago. It's miserable. The smell if one guys deodorant makes me want to puke which is hard to work with because I have guests come up to the front desk and that's all I smell. I have to hold my breath until they leave and run into the back room to gulp fresh air. Haha. I joke that I'm like mom now. I hold my hand under my nose just like she does when she smells perfume.
My morning sickness comes and goes. Today it was pretty bad. Yesterday I didn't have it at all. I am glad I don't get it everyday like I use to. Not much else is new this week. It's pretty much the same. I have learned that I can not stand or work on my feet for longer than 4-5 hours. It kills my back. My back is so hurty right now. I woke up too early today and didn't take a long enough nap.

So... As most of you already know, we had our first visit with the doctor today. I woke up at 7:30 this morning so I could get ready before I had to be there (@ 8:40). I was really bummed out yesterday because I asked a question on Yahoo Answers and people told me that there was no way I could hear the heartbeat this early and the doctor wouldn't even try. I was so depressed. That is what I've looked forward to doing this whole time because I knew I could only afford one ultrasound. So I figured this visit is just to get proded and poked and that on my next visit I could hear it. I have also been super freaked out that something was wrong and that I may have had a missed miscarriage which is so common. (Where the baby stops growing but you don't pass it. You never know until they can't find a heartbeat or they can't detect anything on an ultrasound.) So I was even more scared about this visit. The whole time we were sitting in the waiting area and the doctors room I was so sick. I didn't know if it was from the morning sickness or my nerves. I had to fan my face and suck on my pregnancy pop drops so I wouldn't get sick. The nurse came in and took all the info down. Then gave me the dreaded pink paper gown thing to put on. I rushed to get my clothes off before someone walked in on me and ended up waiting for 10 minutes for the doctor to come in. Haha. She was super nice. She asked about my smoking and I told her that I stopped right when I found out (5 weeks ago today) and she was so happy and excited. She said something like Wow. Good for you that's awesome you were able to do that. I was so uncomfortable but she made me feel pretty okay. She checked me and I noticed something black with a handle on it. It kind of looked like a speaker with a microphone on it. I started to get excited. Maybe that's what a dopler looks like : ) She said she wanted to see if we could hear the heartbeat today. Yay!!! I still had everyones answers in the back of my head that told me it was too early and we wouldn't be able to hear it. She pushed down really hard on my tummy and moved it around and I heard my heartbeat which I thought was the baby and yes-my heart skipped until she said and that's yours. She kept shoving that thing further onto my belly and it hurt. I heard something and thought it was mine until she said op! I think that was it. She moved it around more and we found the heartbeat : ) I have one (that we heard) strong baby in there. It's already working harder than the normal baby : ) She did the rest of her tests which was a little miserable but bearable. Then we were sent on the way. If we pay this off by January (or Febuary I forget which) then we get a $350 discount. That would mean paying over $400 a month. Ouch. So for X-Mas we are asking for only money so we can pay off this doctors bill hopefully by then. I would have loved getting baby stuff for X-Mas but this is more important. So if you have my name ; ) We would really enjoy just money. Thanks. I just figured out that we are going to find out what it is by the end of October : ) Cool. I will probablly have my visit on my 21st week which would make it the last Friday in october.
Some other things ive just thought of that I've had come up this last week have been gas and itchy dry skin. The other day Wade said it looked like my back got sunburned and my skin was peeling off. I rubbed it but not a lit came off. A few days later I felt my back and looked at my hands and they had so much dead skin on them. Sorry I know that's super gross. But I've been super itchy lately too. My neck and back and my main spots. Also my legs have been really itchy. Weird. And I've always been gassy but since getting pregnant I haven't had much gas. The past few days have been worse though. Haha. Sorry.
So now I feel better about everything. I feel like this is going to be okay and I am more excited than nervous now. Yay : ) I'll post more later.

More Car Crap

This month our registartion was due and it wasn't too bad. Only $140. All the car problems started up and I figured I should fix that before I get my safety done. Well the day after we replaced the spark plugs (which was the day I was going to bring it in to get a safety) a giant crack appeared in the windsheild. We have had about 3-4 tiny chips in the window for almost 3 years now so I figured they have never cracked on us before they probablly won't do it now. I never even thought about them because they've pretty much always been there. Well one day (the best day for this to happen too) I get off work and drive home to go change my shoes before I go to get the safety done. When I get home I shut off the car and notice this huge giant crack in the window. So I had to have this window replaced before I could get the safety. I (luckily) saved some money for the registration and had to use almost all of that to pay for the window. Wendy tells Wade that the DMV will give you an extention for the tags. So I am hesitant but I start to get excited because if we were to lay for the tags and the safety we would have exatly $0 for food and gas. So I drive to the DMV and they tell me that it's a 15 day extention to get your safety. So I ended up having to pay the rest of my money I had to the tags. Us we had to use some money that we had on Wades card. So we now have $0 for gas and food anyway. (The insurance was due today and they take that off Wades card so the rest of the money we had on that went to insurance). Isn't that just great? It could have waited 1 day to crack and we would be fine! We could have had money for food and for the doctors next week. I have been so stressed about money. I was planning on using some of that money I saved for the doctors visit so we could start paying it off. My check next week will all go to rent. We probablly won't have amy extra. So hopefully the doctor doesn't require a payment each visit.
They kind of cut my hours back a bit. I am a tiny bit pissed but kind of glad. I am still getting 80 hours a pay check but now it's only 4 days a week one week and 5 the next. I was glad at first because I get 3 days off in that one week but then I started to think about it's not really "full time". Our pay checks aren't 2 weeks apart they are the 1st - the 15th and the the 16th - the last day of the month. So I should have 88 hours a pay check. That would make me full time. Oh well. At least as I am getting 80 hours. We get that extra "commision" so that helps. ($1 for every walk in or reservation unless you get them for rack rate then you get $1.50) I will gladly welcome 3 days off every other week. That will be nice. I am feeling very sick right now. I think I am done writting for the night. I will update next week and let you know how many heart beats we hear.

8 Weeks - Lots Of Throw Up

Not much is new this week either. I have been on antibiotics for a bladder infection and I am finally done with them : ) Yay!! I have noticed my sickness is worse in the morning and late at night. Always when my stomatch is empty. I usually throw up (actually dry heave) when I wake up and then I am able to eat something and be fine for the rest of the day (as long as I continue to eat). I ate some Chef Boyardee yesterday and it was so nasty! Haha. I couldn't finish it and 7 hours later I had to throw up and there it was still in my stomatch. I had to hold in my puke so I wouldn't have to throw up that nasty greesy crap. Today has been pretty bad. I threw up and I couldn't stop. It really wears you out. I slept for an extra 2&1/2-3 hours and I am so exasuted. I want to go home and be done with these night shifts.
My emotions have been so crazy and all over the place. I have been either on the edge of tears or crying every day. Haha. It's great. I am over at Wendys house watching tv and about ready to cry today after I had already cried today. I have never cried so much in my life. I usually cry about once or twice a month (normally when I am not pregnant and full of hormones). It's weird to think it's been over a months since I've found out. It seems so long ago. But it's only been 4 weeks. I am having my first appoinment in a week and I am scared. I don't know what to expect and I am just so scared that something is wrong. I am hoping everything is fine and I get to hear the (one) heartbeat for free. I know I am going to have to have a lot of little tests done and it's all going to be extra. I hope it's not too much. I know they have to check my blood for a few things. Make sure I'm not rh negitive and maybe see what my HCG levels are. Probablly check my pee to make sure I don't have that bladder infection still (which I am scared I do). And a whole bunch more. Money has been on my mind for the past week. I don't know how we are going to pay all of this stuff off before this baby is born. With all the lab fees and 1 ultrasound + the doctors fees I am guessing it is going to be about $3000. Eeek.
So I will do an update next week about how the visit went all though I am sure you all will know how it went before I actually update.