I am so upset angry and pissed off. I am so happy excited and thankful.
UPSET=Period showed up today AFTER I bought expensive pregnancy tests (after being 3 days late), tested, and saw it started right after. Couldn't have come 10 minutes earlier?! I really thought I was pregnant. I was almost 100% positive I was. I try to make myself think I am not so I don't get so upset by it. I could explain almost all my sympotoms except a few. The ones I couldn't expain, I had never had before and that's what made me so certain I was. It's just devastaing. Trying for months and never succeding. I know it's just going to get worse too : (
ANGRY=My stupid bank. I went to go put money into my account (stuff is going to go through tomorrow) and the guy said it would take 4 days for it to to through. What the freakity freakin crap?! Since I opened my Wamu account online in Cali (Wamu switched to Chase in Utah last week and Cali doesn't switch to Chase until October.), they have to mail my checks or cash to Cali to send them to "Wamu". So now I am going to overdraft because of these stupid freakin people who didn't stop and think - people open their account in one state and then MOVE!! This is happening to a lot of VERY angry people right now. They should have switch nation wide at once so this wouldn't have happened. Or atleast sent us letters explaining it. That way we can know that this was going to happen so we could have prepared ourselves for it so won't get charged fees for it. That's probablly why they did it. Just to get lots of money. So if I "deposited" the money into our account, I wouldn't get the money until Tuesday. Still have overdraft fees that they "might pay" ( but most likely won't because they are ... Retards. Or wait till Tuesday and have Wade's check go through and have fees but be able to use our money for Dad and Wade's birthday. I am going to close our account on Tuesday. I am not going to put up with this crap. Chase has been giving us so many problems all ready and they just barely switched.
PISSED OFF=Stupid people. People (in general) just drive me nuts. People who stare for no reason. People who don't know how to drive or read the road signs that say 45 miles an hour. Aparently all roads in St. George are 25. People treat you like crap even though you had nothing to do with whatever they are pissed about (and you can't change it no matter how much you try to make it better) People who are fake. People who look down on others. So pretty much everyone.
HAPPY=Family. I am happy to have such a great family (and in law family). I am happy that Wade's gpop was nice enough to buy us a new battery for Wade's car. We have been needing it for about a month now and haven't been able to afford one. He spent some extra money on a warrenty (which I love) and a good brand. I am happy Wade's mom got us Wii Fit : ) I have been wanting that for over a year. I waned it even before it came out. It was always too much money to spend on myself. (about $100) I am happy that Wade thought about me when he and his mom went to go pick it out. I am happy that eveyone has been so happy and supportive with me wanting to get pregnant. I am happy that other people are excited for me to get pregnant. I am kind of happy that Wade got upset (and looked like he was going to cry) when he found out I wasn't pregnant (again). (Not happy but ... I don't know what to call it. Touched?)
EXCITED=Playing the Wii when I get home tomorrow. I can't wait to start playing our new game. I am excited to see Dad tomorrow. I am excited to have a BBQ and eat homemade ice cream. I am excited to go home and sleep =•) (when am I not excited about that?) I am excited to spend time with my family.
THANKFUL=Family. I am thankful that Wade's family thought of us and were so generous for out birthdays. I am thankful (tf) for Kali. She always let's me talk to her and I can open up to her more than I can with almost anyone else. You give me a lot of encouragement and strength I never knew I had. I am tf for Mom. I can tell her all my worries and open up to her I know she will still love me anyway. She listens to me and is always there when I need her (except when she's watching her shows : ) Don't even try to talk with her while she is watching her shows). I am tf for Dad and his handy toolman scenses. I am glad that I can go to him with all my car problems and I know I am in good hands. I don't trust anyone else with my car problems. I can always talk with you about anything (except for all that girly stuff) and you give me great advise. I am happy that you think about me at 12 or 11 at night and call me just to talk. I am tf for Joesph. You always care about me and let me talk your ear off. You let me bug you all the time. Thanks for always massaging my back and being understanding. You are the best little brother I could ever have. I am tf for Natali. Thanks for always talking with me. Thanks for all the advise you have given me over the years. You were always there for me. I could talk to you about everything and I can be honest with you. I am tf for Micah. Thank you for being a great brother. I'm glad we have so much in common and we can talk about anything. I am glad I can be myself around you. You always make me laugh and can make my day so much better. I am tf for David. Thanks for always thinking about me and always calling me. I wish you could live closer so we could hang out more and so I could get more massages from you (although now my back is worse than moms and even the slightest massage hurts like crazy). Thank you for always giving us gifts and cards (for X-Mas and birthdays). I know you guys are struggiling too and it always means a lot to me that even though you don't have our name for X-Mas you still give us something. I am SO tf to have Wade. I love you so much and I don't know where I would be without you. You always make me happy and I am so lucky to have you.
I am lucky to have such a great family and I don't know what I would do without any of you. I am so happy that we are close. I love everyone of you and I can't wait to see all of you. Sorry this is so long ; )
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Crappy stuff: I think you should have a NEW rule....NO testing for if you're prego until a week has passed w/o your period. =) Granted, I'm sure that if I were in your position, I'd do the exact same thing! But still...um, I'd wait now. Bank thing: Yeah, I'd say close the account and try cash only. I personally have always given my bank about 3 days to actually 'count' the money as IN my account. At Snow College, I'd run out of money (big bills and checking account)...so, I lived off the food I had left (I ate corn flakes and corn for every single meal for more than a week) and paid for EVERYTHING with change I'd built up over those 2 years! =)
Good things: WHOOOOOP, WHOOOOOP~ I love you too Amb and you really do have incredible strength! You deserve the utmost happiness in life!! =) I'm glad Britt, Nat, Micah, David, Ma, Pa, Grandpa from Cali, Holly and Wendy can be there for ya too!! =) You are SUCH a caring person who is constantly looking to help and give to those around you. We're lucky to have YOU in our lives!! =)
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