Happy Thanksgiving

It kind of sucks today. I am at work until 11 tonight. I was so bummed out when I was leaving mom's house to go drop Wade off at this parents. His grandpa is in town and I didn't really want to be over there anyway. But as I was leaving I got so bummed out. His dad was being all nice to me and everyone was so sad that I had to work today. I get here and it is so CRAZY! There is 2 huge soccor and baseball teams that are taking up the whole 2nd floor. Everyone is so loud and annoying! I didn' think I would be able to handle it. Plus we have like 100 more people showing up too. So we are booked full.
And then this guy comes up and hands me a plate full of food. Potaoes, ham, turkey, yams, stuffing, and gravy. So good! They picked up after theirselves. And then they gave me some pumkin pie! YUM! I didn't eat any desert at mom's either so this is perfect. I love pumkin pie! How nice and considerate.
:)
Time is going by pretty fast. Well actually not really. I still have 5 more hours. But I just bought a book (the 8th or 9th in a series that I love! I didn't think they were making any more!), so I am happy about that. I think that's what I'll do for the rest of the night. So.... I"M OFF!

That Same Old Song and Dance

I did what Kali did and just took it off my blog. I don't have my iPod with me.



WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Help-Beatles

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bohemian Rapsody - Queen

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Across the Ocean - Azure Ray

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ha Ha - Mates of State

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Staralfur - Sigur Ros (Which is actually what I want for my funeral)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sleep - Azure Ray (Which is so true)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sunrise, Sunset - Bright Eyes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Love Song - The Cure

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
All You Need is Love - The Beatles

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional

THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Reinvent the Wheel - Bright Eyes

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Sweet Adeline - Elliott Smith

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Hey Jude - The Beatles

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Bowl of Oranges - Bright Eyes

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Four Winds - Bright Eyes

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Baby Britian - Elliott Smith

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Indepence Day - Elliott Smith

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
The Calender Hung Itself - Bright Eyes

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
From a Balance Beam - Bright Eyes

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Light Pollution - Bright Eyes

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Waltz #2 - Elliott Smith


I didn't have enough songs to finish the rest. Oh Well!

Nothing Important

THIS IS JUST ME RANTING. YOU DON'T WANT TO READ THIS!


So last night I came to the realization that I have no feelings/emotions. I've been pushing my feelings down my whole life and I must not have any anymore. The only emotion I really feel any more is anger. I have been such a monster lately. Not to anyone, but in my head. I wish I had the guts to just say it like I feel it. I envy people who can just be like, "You know what? You suck! You are crazy. Stop looking at me!" (etc.) I really wish I could say that. "You really hurt me. What you just said really pissed me off." (etc.)
I don't know why I have such a hard time with it. I need to figure out a way to express my emotions. It is so hard! I might quit the hotel. I don't know. It is driving Wade crazy. We are seriously not seeing each other anymore. It really sucks. And he is getting really sick of it. I am just trying to help! I sometimes feel that I am not appreciated for what I do. I work 2 jobs, clean the whole house, wash all the clothes, cook, and run around/run errands. Lately I have been feeling like he doesn't even care that I am running myself dry for HIM! For us. So we can live in our own house one day. So we can FINALLY pay off our HUGE debt. To him, I am just working because I am a "work-o-holic" and I enjoy working.
Okay I am done before I make myself cry at work.

I Love Quizes

What Your Favorite Color Green Says About You:

Balanced --- Relaxed --- Flexible Compassionate --- Philosophical --- Humble Loyal --- Inventive --- Unique

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourfavoritecolorsayaboutyouquiz/">What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

You Are 50% Manic

You are definitely super charged, and your energy is infectious! Your mania is something to be proud of. You wouldn't be you without it. Just make sure not to give into that self destructive streak of yours.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumanicquiz/">Are You Manic?

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouanoptimistorpessimistquiz/">Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Worn Out

I am going to be SO tired next week. I am working tonight until 11, tomorrow 7-3, Thursday 3-11, Friday 11pm-7am, Saturday 11pm-7am, and Sunday 3-11. Plus on top of that I am working at the carwash all those days (except Sunday). I don't know what I am going to do. I am going to be so tired. Oh well. I just keep thinking its all so I can have money to go on a vacation and so I can buy Christmas presents. Adios!

Christian Bale (It's All For You Kali)

Let me just say before I post this, Kali, you would have DIED! (Or at least something of that extent) So, here I am just working and here comes this guy who looks just like Christian Bale. I turn my head and do like a TRIPLE take. He seriously looks so much like him that I am wondering 'Maybe this is what he looks like off set/off the cameras. This is seriously him. There's no way it's not.' Then Kali, the best part, he comes down the stairs and I hear him talking on the phone. #1.) He has a very (I'm sorry Wade) sexy acsent . #2.) He is talking in a different language. #3.) He eats fast food. (He asked me where In-N-Out was) Kali, you would have enjoyed so much. Now I am not the kind of person to look at other guys since I am married and I am okay with that. But, (again I'm sorry Wade) but he was freakin cute! I'm not that into Christian Bale either. I wish you were here Kali.

Sorry~The rest is me ranting

P.S. On a whole different subject. I HATE people! Mostly the people who get pissed at you because you say, "Oh, hold on let me check that for you." F OFF A HOLES! (Sorry)

X-Mas in Cali

Wade and I went over to his parents today. Spence was going to cook some of his bomb food for Wade's dad. (He's in town this week) I didn't think Cassie was going to come over because she is allergic to animals and they were afraid Tegan was too, but they ended up coming. I was so happy! I love being to hold Tegan. He is pretty fussy, but he is so CUTE! I need to take some pictures of Tegan and put them on here. Every time I see him it makes me want to have a kid of my own. I know this is pretty much all I talk about anymore, but I can't wait any longer.

I am so excited about Christmas! I know it's kind of a ways away, but I already have my decorations up. : ) (My 3 little decorations) I had a dream a while ago about going to an amusment park with Natali's kids and Kali and Mom. It made me SO excited to go down to Six Flags. We went when I was little to the one in St. Louis, but I don't remember much. I really only remember being able to stay up until 12 and wearing a glow in the dark necklace. I want to apologize for not being able to do much for Christmas. I was hoping to get everyone something, but we're not able to. That makes me so bummed. Oh well. I might post more later, but I am bored right now and I think I am going to go play some games or something. Adios!

A Blog To Pass The Time

It seems like the only time I am able to get on here and write anymore is when I am at the hotel. It may be boring, but oh well. Resent happenings: We went down to Vegas with Cassie and Spence last weekend. It was way fun even though we didn't do much. Being out of Utah feels amazing even if it is to Mesquite or Vegas for a few hours.

I am absoluetly in love with Spence and Cassies baby (Tegan). He is the cutest little thing. Yesterday they came over for a little bit to "rent" some movies from our collection. Right when I opened the door, Spence hands me Tegan. Normally you have to bounce him the whole time you are holding him other wise he starts getting angry. Yesterday, he was so chill. I sat down on the couch next to Wade and he just hung out looking at Wade the whole time. Didn't fuss or anything. It was so cute. I am really pushing Wade to start trying. He gets pissed at me though because he tells me everytime that he isn't ready and we need to wait. (I think he's like Dad in the fact that if tell him something more than once, he gets angry.) (P.S. I think it's because of his mom and sister. They tell him the same story 100 times and they never remember anything he tries to tell them). ANYWAY...

I was driving to get some food yesterday and I passed all these Storm Troopers and Darth Vader and I had to take pictures. I promise I will put them up soon. It's pretty cool. It's been raining all day today. I love it! (I did wash my car yesterday and yes, I am pissed. Oh well, I do love the rain.) Wade wanted me to read the Watchmen today since I have 6 more hours of work, but I am in the mood to play some games. So I will write more later. Adios amigos! (My spanish is getting pretty good!)

Some more work!

So I am at work right now (my second job [the hotel]) and this is my first day that I was by myself. (It, luckily was only for 3 hours) We HAVE to have a credit card in order to give the people their rooms. If their card gets declined, it comes out of our pay check. (which I am not going to let happen) So anyway... this ladies card gets declined and I am like "well, I can't give you the room because the card was declined." She starts freaking out at me saying well there should be enough money on the card and that is dumb because I'm not even going to be paying with this card any way. I am paying with cash so you need to let me have the room. BLAH BLAH BLAH. I'll tell you the story later I am going to go home. I'm sleepy.

Hotel California...

So I got a second job working at a Comfort Inn. I don't think I can do this, but I am going to try as long as possible. We got the new Guitar Hero for the wii last night. It's awesome, but we didn't buy it with the drum set which sucks. It has so many good songs. Eventually we are going to get it with a new guitar, drums, and a mic. That way everyone can play it when they are down.
Anyway, I better go get ready for work! Yay

X-Mas Presents!

Even though X-Mas is so far away, I need to start thinking of ideas so I don't rush around at the last minute like I normally do. So please everyone give me some ideas, not only for you but for everyone else too. (Especially Dad!)


I am so excited for the winter. I love when it's all cold (and I'm not getting headaches from the heat), and I really love seeing all the decoration on peoples houses. It's so fun to get into that "Christmas spirit"!


So I have a few ideas, but not many so PLEASE tell me everything you want, even if it's $500! Plus, I need an idea for Micah's birthday. Well, I am so bored. I am over at Mom's house waiting for Wade to be done hanging out with his friend. I don't have much else to say. Bye!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Starlafur

So, I've been reading some books about Buddhists what they kind of believe. It's really cool. Everything is calming and relaxing. One of the books I've started (but have not finished) is called something like How to deal with death and how to live a better life (or something like that). They had some really good suggestions. It kind of got into who Buddha was and his life (which is boring to me) so I stopped reading that one and I am now reading The teachings of Buddha (or maybe it's What Buddhists believe) and I really like that one. They are so peaceful. They don't harm any animals and they try to be nice to EVERYONE! They always think about other people and they try not to ever get angry with anyone. That's something I need in my life. I get so frustrated at everything and everyone. I also watched this really old movie (from the 70's I think), and it was cool. It was a trip.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgCxCZNkQ9E

It's like these aliens are on this weird planet and there are these little humans running around. (kind of like ants to us) The aliens take these little humans and use them as pets. They kind of mistreat them (except for one little alien boy) and they go on these exterminating hunts where they try to kill all the little humans. It made me feel so bad about killing animals. You know when you see a spider and the first thing you think about is killing it. That's kind of how the aliens were. It sounds weird, but it was a good movie. Anyway, I got to go so I can make Wade's friend a beanie.

Baby Fever

So, Wade's friend that he works with, Spence, just had his baby. Britin had her baby. Nanny is going to have hers soon. That's all I think about any more. I know it would be smarter to wait until we are more finacially stable, but I want one SO bad! I know they are hard work and they take ALL your time and you won't have any time for anything, but they are the best things in the whole world. I can't wait to be a fat little pregnant woman and having the baby kick my ribs and make me puke and everything. And then after a while they start walking and runing everywhere.

I am afraid that the baby will health problems (Like Kali's or him having to loose all his hair when he's 8, or having something wrong during delivery, stuff like that). I am also very scared that I am not going to be able to get prego. ( Or have miscarages) I really have a feeling that I am not able to have kids. If that happens, it will ruin me. I mean theirs always adpotion or whatever, but that takes forever and they probablly wouldn't let us have one any way because we don't make enough money. All I know is I have a HUGE baby fever and it better happen soon, or I might go cRaZy!

I'll Be Grateful For This Day

I know I complain A LOT and I always seem to whine. I am just really glad I have good employees that do care about me. I'm so happy to be living on our own and have the best man in the whole world. I really love working for Aaron and Brtin. I know people tell me I need to quit (and I've said it a lot my self), but they do so much for me and they want to make me happy. I know that if I asked for a raise, they would gladly give it to me. It sucks we're all struggling, and I wish it weren't this way, but it'll get better. I am very glad for the WONDERFUL parents I have who will always help me with anything. (Like teaching me to change my brakes, let me eat their food, and wash my clothes at their house, etc.) I love my family and wouldn't change it for anything else. I'm sorry I've been so negative lately. Everything will get better and hopefully we'll all be better off soon enough. <3,

P.S. I got a new phone through Verizon! (yea!) My new number is (435)669-2490

Sunrise, Sunset

I think I need a vacation. I also need a day just to myself. No washing clothes, no going shopping for the store, none of that. Just chill at home or whatever and go shopping for me! I am just so confused about everything today. I am confused about my life and where I am heading. I don't know what I want and I think I'm just a little cranky today. Whatev. I miss my family. Everyone needs to come down here and I want to hang out with everyone! I am just ... I don't know. Ready for my weeks vacation. I better run so I can get everything done for the day.