Wade

So about two days after we found out about me getting the job, we found out Wade lost his. So this new raise was perfect timing. We filled for unemployment and the money should equal out. Tomorrow Wade is going to go talk to his friend about getting a job at where he works. Hopfully that will work out. As everyone knows, NO where is hiring and most places are down sizing. If wade would have been able to stay, his pay would have cut in 1/2 or more. Maybe this is a good thing and he will be able to have a better job that he can have for most of his life. I am just trying to stay positive and not worry about money. ( Which right now is SO hard to do. We are broke. ) It is 5 am right now. I am trying to stay awake fir the last 2 hours of my night shift. Only 2 more and then I get to go sleep. I can' t wait! Well I think I am rambling. P.S. Yesterday I was in the back office at work and I could have sworn I heard people talking. I knew no one was around so I listening really close to everything to see where the sound was coming from. It turns out it was coming from the computer. It was speaking Spanish but no programs were running. I even opened the CD disc thing and nothing was in that. I called in justin to show him. He put his head up to the speakers and it was now singing church hymns. Weird huh?

It's Offical!

No, I am not prego, but I am a real life manager. I am going to be managing the carwash and the gas station. I am super excited but I am really nervous at the same time. It's a lot of responcability. There is a lot to do and a lot to learn. Yay! Finally. On a sadder note, Spencer's dad died last week. It's been really hard on him. He was only 49. I can't even imagine not having my parents right now. They do so much for me and I really need them in my life right now. I didn't ever meet his dad but I got off work to go to his funeral. During the veiwing the kids got up to speak about him. I had to hold back my tears so bad. I just kept thinking about loosing mine and I can't even stand to think about that. I am tearing up right now. New subject ... There isn't anything new besides that. I am going to get a pay raise. I. Will get about 40$ a week in gas. They might pay for my phone bill. I am going to be opening the gas station (at 5:30) but I do get off way earlier which I love. I am super stoked. : )

Happy New Year ( a little late )

Well, my new year goals
(which I probably will not actually end up doing)


1.) Loose weight (about 30 pounds)

2.) Quit smoking

3.) Convince Wade to have a baby

4.) Save money EVERY week!

5.) Speak my mind

Has anyone else made any goals this year? Tell me about them.

so I just saw this kid riding a unicycle thing. It had a regular bike tire but it was lifted higher than a big truck. Talk about random.

I love you Shweets :)



Just try to keep them open!



Well, Shucks!

This Is Kind Of A Long Post (No Pic, Sorry)

Wow. It has been so long since I've posted. So let me start from our vacation. We had so much fun. The only part I didn't like was being squished in the car with his whole family. We went to Magic Mountain (I will post some real pictures soon) and it was so AWESOME! That morning it was kind of rainy but we decided to go anyways. What a great idea! There were barely any people there. We never waited in line (Well we waited a few minutes for our turn to get the front of the coaster). We got to ride all the rides a few times (2-4 times). All the roller coasters were different. My favorite was probably the Tatsu? I think that's what it was called. You sit in the seat (with your feet dangling out of your seat). They tilt you forward so you're body is facing the floor (kind of like you are flying). You go over so many loops and twisties, and pretzels. The first time I went on it I was so freaked out. I was considering not going on it. It was so fun though. The scariest one was the X2. When you sit in the seat (You're legs are dangling out) they tilt you backwards so it's like you're almost laying on your back. They start the roller coaster backwards so you can't see where you are going. You don't know when you're going to drop or flip or twist or anything. (So you don't know how to brace yourself) And then at the very end you feel something hot (even though it's cold outside) and as you go past the heat you notice it's a huge flame shooting out at you. It was awesome but so scary.
We had fun down there. I found another record (yay!) and we both got new shoes. It was good to visit the great grandparents, the grandparents, the step grandparents, cousins, etc.
Christmas was good. It didn't feel like we got much only because we gave each other our presents really early. (I swear we are not doing that next year!) We got some great gifts from everyone (THANK YOU!!!). I/We got an iPod touch (including the warranty, plastic cover, clear cover for the screen, and an extra charger), a record (of some of our favorite music), some cute clips for the hair, a candle, chocolates, our Magic mountain tickets, our hotel stay, two shirts for work (which are really cute and actually fit me!) and a coffee maker :)
I wish I could have spent more time with my family (I know I say that every time they come down, but I really miss them). It was fun having everyone down. Last night we all played games till about 1 in the morning. I am a retard because I forgot I had to work/get up at 6. So I slept at my parents house for about an hour, picked up Wade and his friends, took his friends home, got home at around 3 slept for maybe 2 more hours and then had to wake up to get ready. And then this morning I couldn't find my pants I normally wear so I tore up the whole house searching for them. Couldn't find them though. I was afraid I had to wear a pair of Wade's pants. I luckily found some old (REALLY SMALL) nice pants that his Aunt gave me a few years back. I luckily though was not late. I was still 3 minutes early. :) It feels like I have been working for so long. I only have 3 1/2 more hours to go! I promise I will post pics soon.

So I am on my new iPod touch and I am loving it. Sorry if there are any mistakes they fix most of them. I am loving this thing. I love how I can be on the internet and not have to pay for anything I am going to go though it's too hard to write on this thing

Happy Thanksgiving

It kind of sucks today. I am at work until 11 tonight. I was so bummed out when I was leaving mom's house to go drop Wade off at this parents. His grandpa is in town and I didn't really want to be over there anyway. But as I was leaving I got so bummed out. His dad was being all nice to me and everyone was so sad that I had to work today. I get here and it is so CRAZY! There is 2 huge soccor and baseball teams that are taking up the whole 2nd floor. Everyone is so loud and annoying! I didn' think I would be able to handle it. Plus we have like 100 more people showing up too. So we are booked full.
And then this guy comes up and hands me a plate full of food. Potaoes, ham, turkey, yams, stuffing, and gravy. So good! They picked up after theirselves. And then they gave me some pumkin pie! YUM! I didn't eat any desert at mom's either so this is perfect. I love pumkin pie! How nice and considerate.
:)
Time is going by pretty fast. Well actually not really. I still have 5 more hours. But I just bought a book (the 8th or 9th in a series that I love! I didn't think they were making any more!), so I am happy about that. I think that's what I'll do for the rest of the night. So.... I"M OFF!

That Same Old Song and Dance

I did what Kali did and just took it off my blog. I don't have my iPod with me.



WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Help-Beatles

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bohemian Rapsody - Queen

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Across the Ocean - Azure Ray

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ha Ha - Mates of State

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Staralfur - Sigur Ros (Which is actually what I want for my funeral)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sleep - Azure Ray (Which is so true)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sunrise, Sunset - Bright Eyes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Love Song - The Cure

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
All You Need is Love - The Beatles

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional

THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Reinvent the Wheel - Bright Eyes

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Sweet Adeline - Elliott Smith

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Hey Jude - The Beatles

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Bowl of Oranges - Bright Eyes

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Four Winds - Bright Eyes

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Baby Britian - Elliott Smith

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Indepence Day - Elliott Smith

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
The Calender Hung Itself - Bright Eyes

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
From a Balance Beam - Bright Eyes

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Light Pollution - Bright Eyes

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Waltz #2 - Elliott Smith


I didn't have enough songs to finish the rest. Oh Well!

Nothing Important

THIS IS JUST ME RANTING. YOU DON'T WANT TO READ THIS!


So last night I came to the realization that I have no feelings/emotions. I've been pushing my feelings down my whole life and I must not have any anymore. The only emotion I really feel any more is anger. I have been such a monster lately. Not to anyone, but in my head. I wish I had the guts to just say it like I feel it. I envy people who can just be like, "You know what? You suck! You are crazy. Stop looking at me!" (etc.) I really wish I could say that. "You really hurt me. What you just said really pissed me off." (etc.)
I don't know why I have such a hard time with it. I need to figure out a way to express my emotions. It is so hard! I might quit the hotel. I don't know. It is driving Wade crazy. We are seriously not seeing each other anymore. It really sucks. And he is getting really sick of it. I am just trying to help! I sometimes feel that I am not appreciated for what I do. I work 2 jobs, clean the whole house, wash all the clothes, cook, and run around/run errands. Lately I have been feeling like he doesn't even care that I am running myself dry for HIM! For us. So we can live in our own house one day. So we can FINALLY pay off our HUGE debt. To him, I am just working because I am a "work-o-holic" and I enjoy working.
Okay I am done before I make myself cry at work.

I Love Quizes

What Your Favorite Color Green Says About You:

Balanced --- Relaxed --- Flexible Compassionate --- Philosophical --- Humble Loyal --- Inventive --- Unique

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourfavoritecolorsayaboutyouquiz/">What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

You Are 50% Manic

You are definitely super charged, and your energy is infectious! Your mania is something to be proud of. You wouldn't be you without it. Just make sure not to give into that self destructive streak of yours.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumanicquiz/">Are You Manic?

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouanoptimistorpessimistquiz/">Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Worn Out

I am going to be SO tired next week. I am working tonight until 11, tomorrow 7-3, Thursday 3-11, Friday 11pm-7am, Saturday 11pm-7am, and Sunday 3-11. Plus on top of that I am working at the carwash all those days (except Sunday). I don't know what I am going to do. I am going to be so tired. Oh well. I just keep thinking its all so I can have money to go on a vacation and so I can buy Christmas presents. Adios!

Christian Bale (It's All For You Kali)

Let me just say before I post this, Kali, you would have DIED! (Or at least something of that extent) So, here I am just working and here comes this guy who looks just like Christian Bale. I turn my head and do like a TRIPLE take. He seriously looks so much like him that I am wondering 'Maybe this is what he looks like off set/off the cameras. This is seriously him. There's no way it's not.' Then Kali, the best part, he comes down the stairs and I hear him talking on the phone. #1.) He has a very (I'm sorry Wade) sexy acsent . #2.) He is talking in a different language. #3.) He eats fast food. (He asked me where In-N-Out was) Kali, you would have enjoyed so much. Now I am not the kind of person to look at other guys since I am married and I am okay with that. But, (again I'm sorry Wade) but he was freakin cute! I'm not that into Christian Bale either. I wish you were here Kali.

Sorry~The rest is me ranting

P.S. On a whole different subject. I HATE people! Mostly the people who get pissed at you because you say, "Oh, hold on let me check that for you." F OFF A HOLES! (Sorry)

X-Mas in Cali

Wade and I went over to his parents today. Spence was going to cook some of his bomb food for Wade's dad. (He's in town this week) I didn't think Cassie was going to come over because she is allergic to animals and they were afraid Tegan was too, but they ended up coming. I was so happy! I love being to hold Tegan. He is pretty fussy, but he is so CUTE! I need to take some pictures of Tegan and put them on here. Every time I see him it makes me want to have a kid of my own. I know this is pretty much all I talk about anymore, but I can't wait any longer.

I am so excited about Christmas! I know it's kind of a ways away, but I already have my decorations up. : ) (My 3 little decorations) I had a dream a while ago about going to an amusment park with Natali's kids and Kali and Mom. It made me SO excited to go down to Six Flags. We went when I was little to the one in St. Louis, but I don't remember much. I really only remember being able to stay up until 12 and wearing a glow in the dark necklace. I want to apologize for not being able to do much for Christmas. I was hoping to get everyone something, but we're not able to. That makes me so bummed. Oh well. I might post more later, but I am bored right now and I think I am going to go play some games or something. Adios!

A Blog To Pass The Time

It seems like the only time I am able to get on here and write anymore is when I am at the hotel. It may be boring, but oh well. Resent happenings: We went down to Vegas with Cassie and Spence last weekend. It was way fun even though we didn't do much. Being out of Utah feels amazing even if it is to Mesquite or Vegas for a few hours.

I am absoluetly in love with Spence and Cassies baby (Tegan). He is the cutest little thing. Yesterday they came over for a little bit to "rent" some movies from our collection. Right when I opened the door, Spence hands me Tegan. Normally you have to bounce him the whole time you are holding him other wise he starts getting angry. Yesterday, he was so chill. I sat down on the couch next to Wade and he just hung out looking at Wade the whole time. Didn't fuss or anything. It was so cute. I am really pushing Wade to start trying. He gets pissed at me though because he tells me everytime that he isn't ready and we need to wait. (I think he's like Dad in the fact that if tell him something more than once, he gets angry.) (P.S. I think it's because of his mom and sister. They tell him the same story 100 times and they never remember anything he tries to tell them). ANYWAY...

I was driving to get some food yesterday and I passed all these Storm Troopers and Darth Vader and I had to take pictures. I promise I will put them up soon. It's pretty cool. It's been raining all day today. I love it! (I did wash my car yesterday and yes, I am pissed. Oh well, I do love the rain.) Wade wanted me to read the Watchmen today since I have 6 more hours of work, but I am in the mood to play some games. So I will write more later. Adios amigos! (My spanish is getting pretty good!)