Kinda Creepy... No, Really Creepy

So Wade told me his friend had cut an article out of the paper a few days ago about these two guys who beat and brutally murder an old man. They had a rape charge (which the paper didn't go into that) and the cops had found them because they had cut off the old mans foot and saved it. (Stupid thing to do) Well the creepy thing about it was a while ago they (Wade and his friend) were talking out by the mortuary which is right next to our aparments. The mortuary is right across the street from a homeless shelter. Well they were standing outside talking and this bum comes up to them and starts talking to them. They could tell he was cracked out of his mind. He was going on about how he wanted to go buy a beer but maybe he wouldn't because he was now sober. But maybe be will because he really wants a beer. And he was staying with one of his friends but only for a little bit. Just a few days. No more than that. He was a total weirdo. Well it turns out that one of the guys who had killed the old man was this weirdo who was living across the street from us. That freaked me out so bad!!! We had one guy a few months ago come to our door late one night. We opened it without looking because Spencer (who lives in the same complex) comes over and hangs out with us or just wants to talk to wade at night. Anyway this guy wanted to borrow our phone to call McDonalds to see when the bus comes into town because he was just over there and the bus hadn't showed up yet. (We live about 1 mile from the McDonalds). Wade told him we had a trackfone and our minutes were out. But there was a Walgreens across the street and they would let him use their phone. (Which if he had walked from McDonalds he would have passed that and many other busiesses. ) Well the guy was kind of upset and Wade told him it was late and he should just go over there because most of us were probablly slepping by now. The guy leaves but instead of walking towards Walgrees he goes to the next apartment. We've just had some weird experiences that kind of freak me out. Now I am freaking myself out while I am at work all alone at night! I better go lock the back door : )

On a different note, our anniversary was nice. We pretty much did everything that we had panned on doing. The day went by too fast but that's okay. I really need a break. I am thinking about saving up some money and maybe just going down to Mesquite for a few nights. That would be so nice. I forgot to bring my energy drink with me tonight and I am so tired. I am about to fall asleep. I think I am going to watch my movie I brought. Kabluey. Yay!

3 years strong

Our anniversary is on the 18th. I can't believe that we've been married for 3 years all ready! I wish that we had money this year to acctually do something and I wish I didn't have to work. That kind of sucks. But we are going to celebrate it tomorrow. I am going to babysit Emery so that will give us some money to go out to eat. Yay! I was going to make some yummy ice cream but I didn't realize how much effort goes into making it so if we have any extra money I think we are going to go to Dairy Queen. That was where we went on our first date. Then we went to Wal Mart and tried to pay the cashier with paper coins. : ) She thought we were serious and she was going to kick us out. I didn't really want the night to end so I suggested we go tp a house. Of course I said my mom has so much tp we can go there and pick some up. Well it was like 1 of 2 in the morning because we went out work (around 10 of 11). Mom was waiting up for me because I didn't call her to tell her I was going to be that late. I was so embarassed. She said I had to stay in even though my car was at DQ.

I think we are going to go to this resturaunt that has fondue and they give you your food on this really hot rock. You just slice off a price of your meat and push it on the rock and then flip it over and cook the other side. Yum!!! We went to a resturaunt like this for my bday a few years ago but they shut down. But they opened this new place up that's just like it so I am excited. Plus we are going to go see The Wrestler. I am so excied to see that. We love the director and have been waiting for a good movie to come out for ever. There's really not much else going on in our lives. Wade still hasn't found any work. There is nothing down here right now. It sucks. I want to go on vacation. But I need money first. Oh well. Well only 38 more minutes and then I get to go home and sleep! Yay!

Another One Bites The Dust

So not much is new in our lives. I might get a manager position. Darwin told me that they are going to give me more responsiblity and a pay raise when he pays off some of his bills : ) That would be nice. We need as much money that we can get. So I've been bored out my mind lately. I got this new app for my iPod that allows you to text for free. I love it but the only thing is it has a limit to how many you can send a day because it was a free app. I am thinking about upgrading to the $6 one because it doesn't have any limits. Plus that is so worth it right? Rather than having to pay $5 a month or more. The only bad thing is that you have to have a wifi connection which kind of sucks. But I would be able to text during work. If anyone else is bored and they feel like testing, you can give me ur cell number and we can text. Oh and if you have google talk, give me ur address so if ur ever on we can talk. Work is so boring and I am kind of getting sick of having to watch movies or play games on my iPod all day.

Here Comes The Bride

We went to a wedding today. It was so cute. It was very untradtional. They guys wore all black except their red ties and black and white hats. The colors were red, black, and white. They had really cute decorations and there were a whole bunch of pictures of the two of them and the girls daughter. Being there was romantic for me. I don't think it was for Wade but he's a guy. I was getting all choked up. It reminded me of how lucky I was to have such a great guy. I was kind of hoping for Wade to be all lovey dovey with me and to look at me with tears in his eyes. : ) I think I have been watching too many love stories. That's okay. He was lovey when we got home. The owners just showed up and they are yelling at their son who was here with me working. They are yelling at him for his grades. How funny. Well I feel weired being on here while they are here. Adiós

I've Got Issues

I have been really bad about my jealousy issues lately. Everytime Wade talks about any girl I always get super jealous. I really don't know why. I know Wade will be loyal and I have nothing to worry about, but it has been getting really bad lately. Got any tips for fixing that? I have really bad self esteam issues and maybe that's what it's all about. Right when he says any other girls name the first thing I think of is why were you around another girl?! And then I calm myself down and think just because he's around a girl doesn't mean anything happened or there are girls out in the world too! Of course he will see some eventually. I was never jealous before. Well no, I take that back. I was a little bit but never this bad. Wade was really jealous when we first got together. I think it rubbed off on it a little. Now he doesn't get jealous often and I get jealous if another girl even looks at him. Oi vay. ANYWAY I think I am getting used to the hotel. I have a love hate relasionship with the night shifts. I love being able to be by self, not have to deal with very many people, get to have little breaks throughout my shift. But I kind of hate the next day. I sleep almost all day or I sleep for a few hours get up and have other things to do during the day ( wash clothes, go babysit, go to a wedding, etc. ) And then when I am done doing the things I have to do I can't make myself fall back asleep. Oh well I can deal with it. I'd rather that than have to work the normal shifts and deal with people 5 days a week. : ) I am becoming a recluse. I love it. All I need is Wade, my family, some food, and a nice bed. And I am happy. Well I am going to finish my movie I brought ( I love netflix!) Maybe I will write more later. We'll see

Growing Pains

Today was a pretty fun day. Kind of. I got off work and went home to sleep for about 2 hours. Drove down to the gas station to help them clean and pack everything up. It's so sad to have nothing there. We took down all the dead animals from the carwash and all of the decorations. It was so bare. They got rid of most of the stuff a few days before. About a week before we closed down, one of the workers (Adelfo) was trying to tell me how much he liked Britin. He said that she had a very good heart and was a very good person. It's funny how he can even notice that even though she has only talked with him a few times. He doesnt speak English very much, and I'm sure that she has only talked with him a little bit. But he could see she had a great heart. Even though they are going to loose their house and they don't have any money, she still gave me a whole bunch of stuff. From drinks to X-mas decorations. Plus she gives me money. So anyway I was talking about my day. I come home after about 3 hours try to go to bed for 3 more hours. Britin calls and asks if I want to babysit. Of course I say yes. I love her kids. And I love babysitting their youngest. (I am the only person besides her parents who has ever watched her) I was going to watch the kids for free tonight because as part of their X-Mas gift i told her they get a free night of babysitting. I tell her this and says no. I better take the money or else I can't watch the kids again ( joking of course ). She said that even though they are loosing their house she has a pretty good job and can afford food for them. Now that Wade is out of work I need all the money I can get. Now I am at work again. I brought 2 movies tonight because last night I had too much free time with only one movie. I don't mind the night shifts. I can acctually take little breaks and go walk outside for a little bit. But tonight the owners are out of town and really watching the cameras. I get here and some one comes in to get a room. The girl drops the price for the guy and he doesn't want it, so he leaves. Right away we get a call from Darwin asking why he didn't take the room and he has been calling me about everything. So now I feel like I can't take a break tonight. Or even go to the bathroom. Which really sucks because I have to go. : ) Even though my shift just started I keep thinking about sleeping. I can't wait until 7. Only 7 more hours to go. It's going to be a rough night. Wish me luck.

Wishful Thinking

I really miss working at OTC. I really loved it there. I know the more I work at the hotel the more I am going to hate it. That's horrible huh? At least I have a job and me and wade aren't both out of work. But I really miss it and all the people I worked with and all the people that came in everyday. I hate working with the public. I want a job where I can just work by myself and not have to deal with annoying up tight people. Wishful thinking. Maybe I am just tired from being up all day. I don't know. I really hope wade finds work. Maybe then I won't have to work. I hate working here. I am hoping for something better but I know I will never find something better. Jeez what a winer huh? Oh well. I only have 20 more minutes left. I'm just trying to make the time go by. I think I am really depressed. Sorry this post is such a downer. I am really emotional lately. <3

Laid off

Everyday I hear about people getting laid off and loosing their jobs. It became a reality to me when Wade lost his job. I figured with my new pay raise and working 7 shifts a week that we would be okay. Plus Wade got his unemployment checks and that would help us out a lot. People tell me everyday that either they or their spouse has lost their job. Well on Monday Aaron and Britin want to talk to me up in their office. I knew right then what was going to happen. I saw how much money was being brought in each day. Everyone knew it was coming. It was just a matter of time. They told me how bad they were hurting and that they've tried to hold on as long as possible but they couldn't any more. Everything was going to be shut down on Wednesday. Britin was crying I was trying not to cry. I was thinking great! Now what I going to do? Live off 200$ a week. That will only pay for rent (barely). And then I started to think about them. They just had a baby. Only Britin has work. How are they going to support themseleves? That is what really makes me sick. We are young. We don't have to support 3 kids. I really hope they will be okay. I love them and I would do anything for them if I could. I am not going to go into anything personal with them for their own sake. Luckily for me I kept the hotel job and Darwin and his wife are nice enough to let me come on full time. That takes so much stress off my back. I am working a lot of night shifts. That's going to be a weird transition. Well work is almost over. I'll write more later.

Wade

So about two days after we found out about me getting the job, we found out Wade lost his. So this new raise was perfect timing. We filled for unemployment and the money should equal out. Tomorrow Wade is going to go talk to his friend about getting a job at where he works. Hopfully that will work out. As everyone knows, NO where is hiring and most places are down sizing. If wade would have been able to stay, his pay would have cut in 1/2 or more. Maybe this is a good thing and he will be able to have a better job that he can have for most of his life. I am just trying to stay positive and not worry about money. ( Which right now is SO hard to do. We are broke. ) It is 5 am right now. I am trying to stay awake fir the last 2 hours of my night shift. Only 2 more and then I get to go sleep. I can' t wait! Well I think I am rambling. P.S. Yesterday I was in the back office at work and I could have sworn I heard people talking. I knew no one was around so I listening really close to everything to see where the sound was coming from. It turns out it was coming from the computer. It was speaking Spanish but no programs were running. I even opened the CD disc thing and nothing was in that. I called in justin to show him. He put his head up to the speakers and it was now singing church hymns. Weird huh?

It's Offical!

No, I am not prego, but I am a real life manager. I am going to be managing the carwash and the gas station. I am super excited but I am really nervous at the same time. It's a lot of responcability. There is a lot to do and a lot to learn. Yay! Finally. On a sadder note, Spencer's dad died last week. It's been really hard on him. He was only 49. I can't even imagine not having my parents right now. They do so much for me and I really need them in my life right now. I didn't ever meet his dad but I got off work to go to his funeral. During the veiwing the kids got up to speak about him. I had to hold back my tears so bad. I just kept thinking about loosing mine and I can't even stand to think about that. I am tearing up right now. New subject ... There isn't anything new besides that. I am going to get a pay raise. I. Will get about 40$ a week in gas. They might pay for my phone bill. I am going to be opening the gas station (at 5:30) but I do get off way earlier which I love. I am super stoked. : )

Happy New Year ( a little late )

Well, my new year goals
(which I probably will not actually end up doing)


1.) Loose weight (about 30 pounds)

2.) Quit smoking

3.) Convince Wade to have a baby

4.) Save money EVERY week!

5.) Speak my mind

Has anyone else made any goals this year? Tell me about them.

so I just saw this kid riding a unicycle thing. It had a regular bike tire but it was lifted higher than a big truck. Talk about random.

I love you Shweets :)



Just try to keep them open!



Well, Shucks!

This Is Kind Of A Long Post (No Pic, Sorry)

Wow. It has been so long since I've posted. So let me start from our vacation. We had so much fun. The only part I didn't like was being squished in the car with his whole family. We went to Magic Mountain (I will post some real pictures soon) and it was so AWESOME! That morning it was kind of rainy but we decided to go anyways. What a great idea! There were barely any people there. We never waited in line (Well we waited a few minutes for our turn to get the front of the coaster). We got to ride all the rides a few times (2-4 times). All the roller coasters were different. My favorite was probably the Tatsu? I think that's what it was called. You sit in the seat (with your feet dangling out of your seat). They tilt you forward so you're body is facing the floor (kind of like you are flying). You go over so many loops and twisties, and pretzels. The first time I went on it I was so freaked out. I was considering not going on it. It was so fun though. The scariest one was the X2. When you sit in the seat (You're legs are dangling out) they tilt you backwards so it's like you're almost laying on your back. They start the roller coaster backwards so you can't see where you are going. You don't know when you're going to drop or flip or twist or anything. (So you don't know how to brace yourself) And then at the very end you feel something hot (even though it's cold outside) and as you go past the heat you notice it's a huge flame shooting out at you. It was awesome but so scary.
We had fun down there. I found another record (yay!) and we both got new shoes. It was good to visit the great grandparents, the grandparents, the step grandparents, cousins, etc.
Christmas was good. It didn't feel like we got much only because we gave each other our presents really early. (I swear we are not doing that next year!) We got some great gifts from everyone (THANK YOU!!!). I/We got an iPod touch (including the warranty, plastic cover, clear cover for the screen, and an extra charger), a record (of some of our favorite music), some cute clips for the hair, a candle, chocolates, our Magic mountain tickets, our hotel stay, two shirts for work (which are really cute and actually fit me!) and a coffee maker :)
I wish I could have spent more time with my family (I know I say that every time they come down, but I really miss them). It was fun having everyone down. Last night we all played games till about 1 in the morning. I am a retard because I forgot I had to work/get up at 6. So I slept at my parents house for about an hour, picked up Wade and his friends, took his friends home, got home at around 3 slept for maybe 2 more hours and then had to wake up to get ready. And then this morning I couldn't find my pants I normally wear so I tore up the whole house searching for them. Couldn't find them though. I was afraid I had to wear a pair of Wade's pants. I luckily found some old (REALLY SMALL) nice pants that his Aunt gave me a few years back. I luckily though was not late. I was still 3 minutes early. :) It feels like I have been working for so long. I only have 3 1/2 more hours to go! I promise I will post pics soon.

So I am on my new iPod touch and I am loving it. Sorry if there are any mistakes they fix most of them. I am loving this thing. I love how I can be on the internet and not have to pay for anything I am going to go though it's too hard to write on this thing